I Love You

I moved to the States when I was twelve years old. I always lived with my mom, I didn’t have my father around and my role model was my uncle John, American. I met him when I was twelve and a half, thirteen.

The first thing I remember was shaking his hand, his hand was immense. He was blond and really tall and a typical California surfer dude. He was thirty-six. He became my role model. He became a father figure. Throughout high school and early college years he was the guy that I always talked to.

I remember his house was filled with Washington Redskins paraphernalia — cups and flags and footballs, helmets and the colors maroon and yellow were everywhere.

I graduated college and I went out of the country, I went to live in Poland. One day I get a phone call from John. He says, “Rodrigo, you’re the first I’m going to tell.”

And he says, “I have cancer.”

I had no idea what to do, I had no idea what to say. And he was silent on the other side of the line, he was waiting for me to respond.

And I said, “John, do you know my wifi password?”


“My wifi password, do you know it?”

“No, of course I don’t. What is it?”

“Well, it’s Washington Redskins.”

He didn’t say a word, but he had one of those deep breaths and I understood that he understood what I was trying to say.

Sometimes you can say “I love you” without saying it.

  1. When was a time that you said “I love you” without ever really saying it?
  2. Who had made the biggest impact on your life? When was the last time you talked with them?

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Spoken & Written by Rodrigo Azambuja
Footage from Brody Davis, East West Production, VideoBlocks, Pond5, and Mitch Martinez
Edited by Jim Kast-Keat

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